Sub Conscious: Roller-Coaster Maintenance

those of us subs without the luxury of living with our dom/mes often have to go looooooong stretches in-between 'play sessions' with those to whom we submit. this has produced in me a severe roller-coaster effect of growing excitement shortly before a planned session, a brief high right after a session, and then a slow descent as the high wears off and no immediate prospect of subbing again appears on the horizon.

at some point of the descent, i start subjecting my domme to long, detailed emails which basically allow me to take some of the edge off by immersing myself in a fantasy with her. these emails of course actually only heighten the yearning.

my domme to the rescue!! i'm not sure she intended to even out the roller coasters for me, but that is what she's done.

how? by giving me ongoing instructions that must be carried out daily or near-daily. for example, she has instructed me to:
* do sets of push-ups every other day, with an eventual target of 100 manly push-ups at a time.
* eat 5 vegetable servings a day
* send her a log of what i eat
* perform some low-skill computer functions near-daily.

not "sexxy", but a feasible (on both ends) way of meeting my need to be in continuous submission to her without her engaging in continuing play sessions with me. not only are my moods smoothed out, but when play sessions do come along, they are more meaningful due to an enhanced sense of truly belonging to her. and she's subjected less to long fantasy emails. :-)